Dimples is another lost soul of sorts, trying to figure out where his heart lies within himself... and to whom it belongs. I am similarly trying to tread water, but am far too hopeful for love to happen that I jump at every opportunity, which leads me to overlook the poisonous snakes.
We had a very long intimate chat this weekend, and it was beautiful. I was frustrated with how it ended - Me realizing that he is not over his ex and he realizing that I'm not as confident as I let on.
I'm the one who broached the subject that we should probably not date anymore. He agreed. It was a tough conversation. We both acknowledged there is a strong sense of chemistry between us, but the timing is all wrong. he didn't want to be the guy who broke my heart and I didn't want to merely be a distraction for the girl he wasn't over yet.
Though I know I made the right decision in addressing the issue, I'm still choked up about it.
Last night I went out for drinks with a friend who I dated briefly in the Fall. I had flittered away from it, feeling that we were too different. We finally have managed to get over the akward hump and hang out like friends should. We ended up at the King Eddy, which I found hilarious, because Sommelier and I were there two weeks ago. Sommelier was the one who wasn't over his ex yet... Noticing a pattern?
My friend said the best way to get over someone is to hugely distract yourself, be it work, something creative, as long as it's not alcohol or women (or in my case, men).
I look extra hard for the little things that make me happy. Like remembering when someone unexpected calls me beautiful, or when a handsome stranger smiles at me when we cross paths in the street (was a lovely surprise when that happened Monday on my walk into work!). It's trivial stuff, but they are all little reminders about how I can impact someone in a positive way, and how they return the positive energy my way.
And right now I need all the positive energy I can get.
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