Stay

It's always hard to leave someone you can't bear to part from for what may be a week but seems like months. I'm a pretty open person but I when I get so emotional that I don't know what to do or say, I cry in defeat - which makes me so embarassed. Firstly because of its vulnerable state and secondly - it doesn't seem like a valid reason to shed tears (I credit the latter to growing up with a 'Don't cry about it' type household.)

Hiding tears is always easier than hiding sniffles. Even if you pretend it's 'just allergies'.

I had a couple close calls on the bus (where I nearly endured a downpour), but made it home dry. I was so happy to be home for pretty much two minutes before I was sad again. I missed my Marine Man! I fed Cooper* and just sat in my easy chair while listening to Bernard Butler's People Move On album. I had this tune on repeat a couple times:

Finally, I got dinner in me at 12am and tuned into The Civil Wars (who are beautiful, but can be quite depressing), before moving upward and onward to the Canuck section of my cd library with Wintersleep.

By this point, I was feeling more together (finally) and totally nerded out. I played with Cooper and danced around while listening to the Traveling Wilbury's. (My favourite is this one, but they really had too many hits to only love one track!)

I'm still in a daze, albeit an extremely happy one; one I intend to carry with me until I see him next to spice up hypnotizing work meetings and mundane tasks. I simply can't stop smiling! Weee!!!


*Um weird fact, Cooper actually likes Habitant pea soup with Ham. He licked my bowl clean. (Don't worry, I did give him proper cat food - he just preferred mine!)