http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JypUL_lj1h0
This video is weird, but minimize the screen and listen to the song - it's amazing.
For some reason this track fuels my souls desire for completion - of projects, of thoughts, of anything I could be working on completing. It's on repeat while I bang out my wee novella.
I'm still tyring to figure out the format... If I should devote a chapter to each guy who has left some sort of impression on me? Or should I write it autobiographically? Maybe I should Tarantino it? I love how Tarantinoing is a verb. Like Google, I want to be a verb one day!
It's so warm in my condo. I have four radiators with only two on. Still, I'm in a tank top and shorts. Cooper is sitting on the floor licking his bum. I chucked my sock at him, but he only stopped for a sec to look at the balled up sock, then up at me and continued to lick himself.
Sometimes I wish I could amuse myself so easily - but then I remember all my escapades ... Right, back to the writings...
Won't mom and dad be proud of their daughter? I was thinking of putting a parental guidance warning on the hard cover when it gets published (okay.. IF it gets picked up by publishers.) The book is gonna be chock full of sexy rants and recounts of naughty events, plus my politically incorrect opinions... I've already started to write my obituary in case.
Thursday, December 30, 2010
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Yay Christina is here from Calgary!
Last I saw Christina was in August before she moved to Calgary. So it was so amazing to see my girl after four months of phone calls, texts and facebook notes. It was as tho she never left.
We found a lovely little patisserie - I love how this girl thinks. She suggested we order three desserts and enjoy them all while sipping fancy hot drinks. How can a gal say no to that? Sure - I gained an inch around my waist over the holidays, but that's what constant eating and drinking for two weeks will do! My mum's an amazing cooker upper.
I don't get to see my girl often enough and Christina's' ideas are too smashing to pass up, so I forgot about my weight woe's and dug in. Man... there's this amazing treat called the Polar Bear... the BEST. It was so nice to lounge in big soft chairs and rant and ramble and laugh. I have made a point to visit her in the New Year... probably close to the beginning of March. There's talk of Vegas. That would be so awesome!
We found a lovely little patisserie - I love how this girl thinks. She suggested we order three desserts and enjoy them all while sipping fancy hot drinks. How can a gal say no to that? Sure - I gained an inch around my waist over the holidays, but that's what constant eating and drinking for two weeks will do! My mum's an amazing cooker upper.
I don't get to see my girl often enough and Christina's' ideas are too smashing to pass up, so I forgot about my weight woe's and dug in. Man... there's this amazing treat called the Polar Bear... the BEST. It was so nice to lounge in big soft chairs and rant and ramble and laugh. I have made a point to visit her in the New Year... probably close to the beginning of March. There's talk of Vegas. That would be so awesome!
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
Tarot cards keep amazing me
I've started to read them in batches of 10. Essentially there are three messages in each reading (three groups of 3 cards) and the one final card (the 10th) reflects the overall energy or direction of the message.
I'm amazed by how accurate the reading is for myself and close friends - one friend in particular. I've never had a readin gabout her, but it was so obvious this time. From what I understand, every card reader had a different method in order to read the cards, or to tame their gut so they don't take the message the wrong way or in a completely different direction than it's meant to be taken.
I leave my cards on my altar, on a beautiful rainbow colouredsilk scarf a colleague brought for me back from the Dominican. The cards are positioned by the window sill where Cooper naps in the sun. He will often sits on the cards or stand over them, sniffing away. He provides a lot to my readings and how the cards fall...
I'm excited how the cards will fall over the coming year :)
I'm amazed by how accurate the reading is for myself and close friends - one friend in particular. I've never had a readin gabout her, but it was so obvious this time. From what I understand, every card reader had a different method in order to read the cards, or to tame their gut so they don't take the message the wrong way or in a completely different direction than it's meant to be taken.
I leave my cards on my altar, on a beautiful rainbow colouredsilk scarf a colleague brought for me back from the Dominican. The cards are positioned by the window sill where Cooper naps in the sun. He will often sits on the cards or stand over them, sniffing away. He provides a lot to my readings and how the cards fall...
I'm excited how the cards will fall over the coming year :)
Sunday, December 26, 2010
I Know, I Know...
After I swear off net dating I try a new site called Smartdate.com. All the guys who find me attractive tend to be from Quebec, London or Texas. Stupid online dating.
I found Dan's blog on Purerave.com
The fact he is on purerave.com should be a major warning. But let's hope he doesn't find my ashleymadison.com or fetlife.com website... that would likely be a major warning for him! (Seriously, I deleted those accounts MONTHS ago.)
Right now, just chillin' to some Arcade Fire, chatting with my girl Anne, talkin' dildos with my bud Derek and debating on writing more of my novel. I promised myself I wouldn't write it all Hemmingway-like (drunk). We'll see what happens!
I found Dan's blog on Purerave.com
The fact he is on purerave.com should be a major warning. But let's hope he doesn't find my ashleymadison.com or fetlife.com website... that would likely be a major warning for him! (Seriously, I deleted those accounts MONTHS ago.)
Right now, just chillin' to some Arcade Fire, chatting with my girl Anne, talkin' dildos with my bud Derek and debating on writing more of my novel. I promised myself I wouldn't write it all Hemmingway-like (drunk). We'll see what happens!
Donny
So Donny was a bit bothered how I didn't mention him in my blog posts. Donny, baby, this one's for you!!
So I met Donny on pof... probably about two years ago now? Last I saw him was... August? No.. that can't be right... Maybe September... No wait it was November 1st! He moved into his new pad and I gave him some rawkin cookware.
Wow. Clearly, I'm still drunk.
<3 ya Donny!
So I met Donny on pof... probably about two years ago now? Last I saw him was... August? No.. that can't be right... Maybe September... No wait it was November 1st! He moved into his new pad and I gave him some rawkin cookware.
Wow. Clearly, I'm still drunk.
<3 ya Donny!
Mad Hiccups
So I'm kinda drunky. Had four glasses of wine, a mug of coffee with three shots of Bailey's and it's only suiting to be listening to Amy Winehouse, don't you think?
All I can think of is Ack, Dale, my Boxing Day Steals, the hilarious game of charades after dinner with the fam and my snuggly buddy Cooper.
I'm also kinda wondering how Dan's friend Bill planned to make me scream. (Bill told me he wanted to make me scream the first time I methim about a week ago - completely innapropriate, but still appealing for a flirty French girl like moi whose {supposed} man wasn't doing a thing to keep her intrigued.)
I am full of home made sugar tarts and home made chocolates. I am still kinda drunky and evaluating New Years Eve plans. To be perfectly honest, I'd be content spending the day at home on my own, which is what I may end up doing... I don't know why NYE is such a big deal ... Perhaps I'll understand what it's like when I hav ea man who is able to take me out to dinner.
My 'boyfriend' never took me out to dinner the whole time we were dating... kinda pathetic. I mean, a man is supposed to do all he can to woo a gal, isn't he? I guess it's old fashioned of me to think so... but hey, if a guy expects some sugar, especially some from me, he better pull out all the stops, damn it.
All I can think of is Ack, Dale, my Boxing Day Steals, the hilarious game of charades after dinner with the fam and my snuggly buddy Cooper.
I'm also kinda wondering how Dan's friend Bill planned to make me scream. (Bill told me he wanted to make me scream the first time I methim about a week ago - completely innapropriate, but still appealing for a flirty French girl like moi whose {supposed} man wasn't doing a thing to keep her intrigued.)
I am full of home made sugar tarts and home made chocolates. I am still kinda drunky and evaluating New Years Eve plans. To be perfectly honest, I'd be content spending the day at home on my own, which is what I may end up doing... I don't know why NYE is such a big deal ... Perhaps I'll understand what it's like when I hav ea man who is able to take me out to dinner.
My 'boyfriend' never took me out to dinner the whole time we were dating... kinda pathetic. I mean, a man is supposed to do all he can to woo a gal, isn't he? I guess it's old fashioned of me to think so... but hey, if a guy expects some sugar, especially some from me, he better pull out all the stops, damn it.
Saturday, December 25, 2010
Merry New Year!
Indeed it will be a merry one. Why? Coz I won't be starting it on the wrong foot - and by that I mean my relationship (whatever kind it was) with Dan is kaput.
I couldn't stand it - I wasn't happy with our ... arrangement. Unfortunately the day I chose to tell him about my unhappiness was on December 25th - which holds significance of faith for most - but I'm Pagan and he's agnostic, so I didn't think it'd make a difference to him.
Apparently it did - and he wasn't impressed (like I care!). Though my intention was never to impress him - obviously. Rather, it was to unimpress him and push him away. Far, far away. And I got what I wanted without a crazy rant... so far. We'll see what happens in the coming days. I have a feeling I haven't seen the last of him yet...
I couldn't stand it - I wasn't happy with our ... arrangement. Unfortunately the day I chose to tell him about my unhappiness was on December 25th - which holds significance of faith for most - but I'm Pagan and he's agnostic, so I didn't think it'd make a difference to him.
Apparently it did - and he wasn't impressed (like I care!). Though my intention was never to impress him - obviously. Rather, it was to unimpress him and push him away. Far, far away. And I got what I wanted without a crazy rant... so far. We'll see what happens in the coming days. I have a feeling I haven't seen the last of him yet...
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
Celebrating the Winter Solstice :)
One of the directors at work asked me what I'm doing tonight to celebrate the Solstice. He remembered that as a Pagan, it is a very special day for me!
Back in October he asked if I was a witch after I told him that I was going to Salem for Samhain. Instead of saying that I was a Pagan, but not a witch (I don't cast spells) - I agreed that he was right. Some might disagree with my agreeable approach, but I didn't feel comfortable explaining my Spirituality in great detail at the office.
Still, I found it quite touching that, months later, he remembered and offered well wishes. I was caught off guard and felt so warm and fuzzy. However, I am disappointed that my boyfriend didn't remember.
We are still *new* and haven't yet hit the one month mark, still - isn't this the time when a man is supposed to go out on a limb to impress his lady? It's something simple... you may find it petty, but little things mean a lot to me.
Met up with Jenn for a coffee. Too many inside jokes and an hour later, I'm back at the office
One lady brought a home made red velvet cake to work. Another one brought cookies and a guy brought in a few loaves he made with his wife (how sweet!) I easily ate about a dozen sugar cookies. And there was home made peanut brittle. I never in my life had peanut brittle. I'm ADDICTED!! Nom nom nom...
I was mowing down another cookie when a service provider dropped by to visit my boss. Is it weird that he asked me to go have a drink with him?
Made it home in record time and got a good workout in. Ahh... I'm feelin' good. :)
8:35pm
He remembered! Dan just called and wished me a Happy Solstice. My faith in men is restored!!
Back in October he asked if I was a witch after I told him that I was going to Salem for Samhain. Instead of saying that I was a Pagan, but not a witch (I don't cast spells) - I agreed that he was right. Some might disagree with my agreeable approach, but I didn't feel comfortable explaining my Spirituality in great detail at the office.
Still, I found it quite touching that, months later, he remembered and offered well wishes. I was caught off guard and felt so warm and fuzzy. However, I am disappointed that my boyfriend didn't remember.
We are still *new* and haven't yet hit the one month mark, still - isn't this the time when a man is supposed to go out on a limb to impress his lady? It's something simple... you may find it petty, but little things mean a lot to me.
Met up with Jenn for a coffee. Too many inside jokes and an hour later, I'm back at the office
One lady brought a home made red velvet cake to work. Another one brought cookies and a guy brought in a few loaves he made with his wife (how sweet!) I easily ate about a dozen sugar cookies. And there was home made peanut brittle. I never in my life had peanut brittle. I'm ADDICTED!! Nom nom nom...
I was mowing down another cookie when a service provider dropped by to visit my boss. Is it weird that he asked me to go have a drink with him?
Made it home in record time and got a good workout in. Ahh... I'm feelin' good. :)
8:35pm
He remembered! Dan just called and wished me a Happy Solstice. My faith in men is restored!!
Sunday, December 19, 2010
New workout regimen!
Last weekend I had asked mon Daniel to show me some new moves that could improve my workouts and help boost my toning - I had hit my plateau last month. Dan came over Tuesday and did a wrkout with me at home to show me proper stance and positioning. Plus he drew out two other workouts for me to try so that I can alternate my sessions so as not to get bored.
Tuesday, I did Push (essentially pushing weights around, working the core and arms).
Thursday, I did Pull (pulling weights, working glutes and core).
Friday, I did cardio before going out to a party. Timing was tight, but glad to have gotten it in!
Today I did Legs (Lunges, squats and leg curls - am I ever wobbly now!)
I round out each session with 5-10 minutes of intense yoga poses to increase cardio (Warrior, Lightening Bolt and Crow).
It's only been a week - and I'm getting impatient to see results, but Dan is definitely keeping me grounded and is so supportive of my personal goals. Lisa also told me not to get impatient and that it takes about 4 weeks to see results from a new routine. And considering it's Christmas and there's loads of goodies circulating, I will likely not see results until mid-January. But hopefully, I'll accomplish my goal by the end of February - to fit into my size 28 jeans. Right now I fit into my 29's, but they're a bit snug.
Daniel is very sweet because he told me that he likes me as I am, which is what I was hoping to hear! Still, it's awesome to have that support for new goals too. I imagine some gals might get offended by having their boyfriend give them tips on how to be healthier and more trim, but this is what I want, so I'm embracing his advice with open arms. Though I did make it clear to Daniel to not be too preachy to me - that this is ultimately my goal and not his to work on.
*sigh*
Life is great :
Tuesday, I did Push (essentially pushing weights around, working the core and arms).
Thursday, I did Pull (pulling weights, working glutes and core).
Friday, I did cardio before going out to a party. Timing was tight, but glad to have gotten it in!
Today I did Legs (Lunges, squats and leg curls - am I ever wobbly now!)
I round out each session with 5-10 minutes of intense yoga poses to increase cardio (Warrior, Lightening Bolt and Crow).
It's only been a week - and I'm getting impatient to see results, but Dan is definitely keeping me grounded and is so supportive of my personal goals. Lisa also told me not to get impatient and that it takes about 4 weeks to see results from a new routine. And considering it's Christmas and there's loads of goodies circulating, I will likely not see results until mid-January. But hopefully, I'll accomplish my goal by the end of February - to fit into my size 28 jeans. Right now I fit into my 29's, but they're a bit snug.
Daniel is very sweet because he told me that he likes me as I am, which is what I was hoping to hear! Still, it's awesome to have that support for new goals too. I imagine some gals might get offended by having their boyfriend give them tips on how to be healthier and more trim, but this is what I want, so I'm embracing his advice with open arms. Though I did make it clear to Daniel to not be too preachy to me - that this is ultimately my goal and not his to work on.
*sigh*
Life is great :
2010 On A Month By Month Basis.
January
New Years dinner with Christina at Azure - party with Jason & Daniel, Matt & Alfie and met Gus and Damien.
Bought my air ticket to Milan - Rented a house on Isola D'Elba with Elena. Countdown begins.
First time at a lesbian bar - Lots of fun! No, didn't get numbers.
Dated Dale (two weeks) and Giglielmo (one week)
February
Month of debauchery - Performed my first (and last) stage show at Renegade. Fun with J & K.
Got my bonus!
Bought a new blue dress for Italiaaa!
Lotsa hangout with Jenn
Dumped Dale and G-dude
Dated Deni (three weeks)
March
Attended a lame stag and doe in KW.
Working out like mad to Italy trip - Lost 10 pounds!
Dumped Deni
Dated Jeremy (two weeks)
Dumped Jeremy
Brunch with Gus & Damien to bitch about Jeremy.
April
Bought Euros for Milano trip. Learning Italian is fun!
Keep working out - lost another 10 pounds!
Hosted an amazing Charity Casino event at work and raised $3,000 for Ride for the Cure!
Dated Greg (three weeks)
May
Bought life and critical illness insurance. Feel so grown up.
Started looking for a new job - two weeks interviewing for Macquarie for an Exec. Assistant job.
Practicing Italian with Elena's cute friends on Facebook.
Dumped Greg.
Dated Bram (one week)
June
Continued with the interviews for Macquarie...
Was laid off. Poop.
Cancelled Italy trip. Chucked the Italian lessons in the garbage.
Learned how to made poached eggs.
Dated Bruce - again (two weeks)
July
Jason and Daniel move into their new apartment two subway stops away from me!
Found a new job! Wee!
Turned 28. Wow. Made it beyond the 27-year-old curse of death! lol
Dated Manu - Met him in June at his Made in France shop
August
Celebrated one year on my own in my pad.
Made new friends with Lisa, Angie and Brian.
Christina moved away to Calgary.
Dated Manu for another month...
September
Getting pumped for Halloween... Thinking of a mini getaway
Bought a fabulous pair of $400 Fly heels
Disbanded from Manu. Not a bad guy, just not right for me.
October
Hosted a toga party
Adventures in Boston on my own. Visited Salem on Halloween. Had the most amazing and life altering tarot card reading.
Year end at work - super stressed!
November
Crazy cool dinner at Onoir. Dining in the dark is weird, but had loads of fun with Jenn and Patricia.
Met up with Karl at Panorama and had fun catching up.
Lost my purse! Paid $300 for a new lock. Lost my phone and Drivers License. Poop.
December
Started dating Daniel!! He's so awesome.
Paid $600 for a new phone.
Went to two bad sweater parties with Daniel! He taught me how to make risotto!
Gained 5 pounds. That's not so awesome, but holiday goodies will do that.
Super happy. What a way to start 2011. :)
New Years dinner with Christina at Azure - party with Jason & Daniel, Matt & Alfie and met Gus and Damien.
Bought my air ticket to Milan - Rented a house on Isola D'Elba with Elena. Countdown begins.
First time at a lesbian bar - Lots of fun! No, didn't get numbers.
Dated Dale (two weeks) and Giglielmo (one week)
February
Month of debauchery - Performed my first (and last) stage show at Renegade. Fun with J & K.
Got my bonus!
Bought a new blue dress for Italiaaa!
Lotsa hangout with Jenn
Dumped Dale and G-dude
Dated Deni (three weeks)
March
Attended a lame stag and doe in KW.
Working out like mad to Italy trip - Lost 10 pounds!
Dumped Deni
Dated Jeremy (two weeks)
Dumped Jeremy
Brunch with Gus & Damien to bitch about Jeremy.
April
Bought Euros for Milano trip. Learning Italian is fun!
Keep working out - lost another 10 pounds!
Hosted an amazing Charity Casino event at work and raised $3,000 for Ride for the Cure!
Dated Greg (three weeks)
May
Bought life and critical illness insurance. Feel so grown up.
Started looking for a new job - two weeks interviewing for Macquarie for an Exec. Assistant job.
Practicing Italian with Elena's cute friends on Facebook.
Dumped Greg.
Dated Bram (one week)
June
Continued with the interviews for Macquarie...
Was laid off. Poop.
Cancelled Italy trip. Chucked the Italian lessons in the garbage.
Learned how to made poached eggs.
Dated Bruce - again (two weeks)
July
Jason and Daniel move into their new apartment two subway stops away from me!
Found a new job! Wee!
Turned 28. Wow. Made it beyond the 27-year-old curse of death! lol
Dated Manu - Met him in June at his Made in France shop
August
Celebrated one year on my own in my pad.
Made new friends with Lisa, Angie and Brian.
Christina moved away to Calgary.
Dated Manu for another month...
September
Getting pumped for Halloween... Thinking of a mini getaway
Bought a fabulous pair of $400 Fly heels
Disbanded from Manu. Not a bad guy, just not right for me.
October
Hosted a toga party
Adventures in Boston on my own. Visited Salem on Halloween. Had the most amazing and life altering tarot card reading.
Year end at work - super stressed!
November
Crazy cool dinner at Onoir. Dining in the dark is weird, but had loads of fun with Jenn and Patricia.
Met up with Karl at Panorama and had fun catching up.
Lost my purse! Paid $300 for a new lock. Lost my phone and Drivers License. Poop.
December
Started dating Daniel!! He's so awesome.
Paid $600 for a new phone.
Went to two bad sweater parties with Daniel! He taught me how to make risotto!
Gained 5 pounds. That's not so awesome, but holiday goodies will do that.
Super happy. What a way to start 2011. :)
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
One Smitten Kitten
When I first saw him he was leaning akwardly against the glass Shoppers Drugmart wall by the Yonge/Bloor station. He was fiddling with a Metro paper, trying to appear to read it casually, but I could tell he was nervous - I felt relieved I wasn't the only one.
Then he looked at me with those big brown eyes and grinned big - my heart melted.
Son nom est Daniel. Oui, he's a Frenchie. Which is funny coz my bro's boyfriend's has the same name and is also Francais!
My new beau is an absolute softie, but he's also a ravenous hunk of a man. How I enjoy the two sides of him! On our first date, he was chittering away nervously on the way to the restaurant (which thankfully prevented me from yammering away, nervously).
He found me online (POF... I know, I know...) and we met the next night. We even hung out the day after... and the day after that. And saw him last night. We went to a friend's wee rock show at the Rancho and my gal pal flat out said Dan was sexy as hell. Always nice to have a gal pal's approval ;)
Dan and I also made plans for Friday... And he invited me to two Christmas parties next weekend. We can't seem to get enough of each other. The best part is he knows I'm strange and likes that about me. I have no idea where this is going to go...but that's part of riding it out, isn't it? ;)
Then he looked at me with those big brown eyes and grinned big - my heart melted.
Son nom est Daniel. Oui, he's a Frenchie. Which is funny coz my bro's boyfriend's has the same name and is also Francais!
My new beau is an absolute softie, but he's also a ravenous hunk of a man. How I enjoy the two sides of him! On our first date, he was chittering away nervously on the way to the restaurant (which thankfully prevented me from yammering away, nervously).
He found me online (POF... I know, I know...) and we met the next night. We even hung out the day after... and the day after that. And saw him last night. We went to a friend's wee rock show at the Rancho and my gal pal flat out said Dan was sexy as hell. Always nice to have a gal pal's approval ;)
Dan and I also made plans for Friday... And he invited me to two Christmas parties next weekend. We can't seem to get enough of each other. The best part is he knows I'm strange and likes that about me. I have no idea where this is going to go...but that's part of riding it out, isn't it? ;)
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
It Couldn't Be Winter Without ...
- Spilling a fancy Starbucks coffee all over myself
- Getting blisters on my heels from my enormous DC winter boots
- Boney M
- Sweat dripping down the small of my back from being too bundled up while walking too fast
- Gaining 10 pounds
- Simply having a Wonderful Christmastime. LOVE that song!!
- Burning my finger while lighting candles
- Mom's tourtiere
- Cooper chasing snowflakes along my windows
- Baking suger cookies while jammin' to Bob Marley
- Hiked up phone bills
- Dad coughing like hell from eating too many shelled peanuts
- Baileys in my coffee
- Playing Carcassone with Jason
- Spending too much coin on dinners out with friends
- Daydreaming about a beach vacation
- Scrapbooking
- Wedged on the couch between mom and Jason by the fireplace, with dad in ther rocker and Cooper curled up. Aww..
- Watching The Holiday, Love Actually, Serendipity, Christmas Vacation, and Elf.
- Getting blisters on my heels from my enormous DC winter boots
- Boney M
- Sweat dripping down the small of my back from being too bundled up while walking too fast
- Gaining 10 pounds
- Simply having a Wonderful Christmastime. LOVE that song!!
- Burning my finger while lighting candles
- Mom's tourtiere
- Cooper chasing snowflakes along my windows
- Baking suger cookies while jammin' to Bob Marley
- Hiked up phone bills
- Dad coughing like hell from eating too many shelled peanuts
- Baileys in my coffee
- Playing Carcassone with Jason
- Spending too much coin on dinners out with friends
- Daydreaming about a beach vacation
- Scrapbooking
- Wedged on the couch between mom and Jason by the fireplace, with dad in ther rocker and Cooper curled up. Aww..
- Watching The Holiday, Love Actually, Serendipity, Christmas Vacation, and Elf.
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